chandelier

by autumn-us

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Ronald Holstein
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Ronald Holstein Autumn has picked up where they left off, with their distinctive sound and style.Thank you Autumn & William Faith, this is such a lovely surprise :) Favorite track: the maiden's child.
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Furstemberg What a great new for the music to have this band again making good pieces of poetry
Erica Anderson
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Erica Anderson The wait is finally over and it was so worth it. Every track on the album is a gem but "Just Before the Storm" is the track that stands out for me. Besides being an immensely talented vocalist, Julie Plante is an equally talented musician as shown on this track. Favorite track: just before the storm.
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jeffj9930 I have truly missed your works. So happy to see you back. Please stay for as long as possible. You're at the top of my list of favorite artists.
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released March 23, 2018

Produced, Recorded & Mixed by William Faith at Zone Zero Studio, Chicago, IL.

Mastered by Chad Blinman at The Eye Socket, Boston, MA.

Band Photography by Craig VanDerSchaegen.
Album Photography & Art Direction by Clovis IV.

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autumn-us Minneapolis, Minnesota

autumn is Julie Plante (vocals), Jeff Leyda (bass), and Neil McKay (guitars). Forming in Minneapolis in 1994, autumn has always sought to create melodies that get the listener to feel something deeply, that have the ability to haunt you in some way after the fact.

"chandelier" is the brand-new full-length album released on Sett Records, on March 23, 2018, with U.S. and European tours to follow.
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Track Name: beginnings
are you ready? (cus i’m ready)
c’mon let’s go!
hey look ahead
where there’s a cloud hanging low
and it might be rain it might be snow
right here, a winged creature takes flight
with a keen look in her eyes
don’t you want to know what she knows?
oh what she knows, she knows.
we are here
and here is the only place i want to be
we are near to the earth now
there is no time to waste, don’t be long, don’t be late
it's time, its time to make our mark upon the land
it's our turn to take a stand
there’s no time to waste, don’t be long, don’t be late
let’s fly!
and up ahead i see a train
and i don’t know where it goes
or if its fast or if it's slow
i don’t care, c’mon let’s ride!
long and deep into the night
as the clouds spill out over our heads
all i really needed to know is that wherever you are, i will lay my head
now, now we have a chance to make our place
our time to breathe our space
not going to be a better time

it's time to let our sight carve through the storm
it's our time to be reborn
and it's ok, if a new wall should build itself right in front of me
well then it's just our time to let it be
Track Name: the maiden's child
it was to be the strangest night i’d ever know
it was the night i’d bear the maiden’s child
and break the spell
this maiden spoke to me
she kissed my eyes, she let me breathe
and as her veils fell to the sea
she picked me up and carried me
to a place where lovers bleed
the blood of love, so tender sweet
now looking back to where i had lain
i knew then i’d never rise again
but she broke the spell
she broke the line
it would have kept me from my truth until the end of time
though i’ve played amongst the fallen leaves
taken in the splendor of the seas
and mother moon, she still amuses me
in her i have found my eternity
eternity
it was to be the strangest night i’d ever know
it was the night i’d bear the maiden’s child
and break the spell
and break the line
that would have kept me from my truth until the end of time
she broke the spell
she broke the line
it would have kept me from my truth until the end of time.
Track Name: the fall
where i had my feet to close to the edge
i broke down
so i go on from day to day to day
and no one knows how i pay and pay and pay
bright lights have never been a friend to me
i have seen the light and it was not who i needed it to be
bold lights and cold color
trailing behind me like a nagging mother
even you cannot help me now
this time i’m going down
i break down
and i say ”la, la,la” as i’m falling down
break down
with just a flick of the wrist and just a one-fingered push
i am careening down
that was all it took
this world has never been a friend to me
i have seen the light and it was not what i needed it to be
bold light and bold color
trailing behind me like an angry lover
even you cannot help me now
this time I’m growing thin
i break in
so i might as well twist and ease back into the spin
and i let it go, and this time i’ll go slow
and with my arms out free
i only needed you to be here with me
oh i want to be free
i want to know what’s inside of me
i want to know who i am meant to be before i die
i want to be free
i want to know what’s inside of me
i want to know who i am meant to be before i die
i’ve got to try
go to the left and the right in the heat of the night
i’ve lost everything and it was all a fight
this world has never been a friend to me
i have seen the light, it was not where i needed it to be
bold light and bold color
trailing behind me like an angry mother
even you cannot help me now
this time i’m in cold light and bold color
cold light and bold color
cold light
touch ground.
Track Name: soulsong
at last i can see the difference in the air tonight
at last i can see the difference in the air tonight
and now we will be hand in hand tonight
no more pain, no more wasted light
no more wasted light
i know that there has never been a day
there has never been a more precious day
so when my earth mother calls me home
you will not be alone
they can throw my ashes to the wind
and i will just come right back again
i am the sun and rain and day and night
and i will never give up this flight
you are my soul soaring free, in hope and love, we’ll be
now, i will carry you inside of me
wrapping you in eternity (you are the one i have dreamed about)
you’re my eternity (you are the one that i love)
at last, i can see the difference in the air tonight
at last, i can tell there will be no more lonely nights
and when my earth mother calls me home
you will not be alone
they can throw my ashes to the wind
i will just come right back again
in sun and rain and day and night
no, i will never give up this flight (now that i have you i know that my soul is free)
you are my soul soaring free, in hope and love, we’ll be
this is my soul song (you are the one that i dreamed about)
i am so glad to have found you after so long (you are the one that i love)
we’re free at last
Track Name: at summer's end
hush now my darling
and don’t fear, no one is watching
for though vows have been taken
right now, my faith is shaken
i don’t want to be shaken
and if this love should destroy me
then let me make up my own death bed
and will you cover me with your holy kisses
and let me die here with no more wishes
to take you completely
whole and within me (i’ve got to have you inside)
just a moment of stillness (won’t you please hold me still)
that we may feel our oneness
i want to be one
and if this love should destroy me
then let me make up my own death bed
and will you cover me with your holy kisses
and let me die here with no more
i will never be whole again
i will never go home again
i will never know home again
it’s just my sweet misfortune
it’s just the pain of loving you,
it’s just the pain of a wasted truth,
it’s just the pain of loving you
now our summer is fading
in my heart, i’ll still be waiting (and won’t you please wait for me?)
because a secret was spoken
now i fear i will always be broken
i don’t want to be broken
and if this love should destroy me
then let me make up my own death bed
and you will cover me with your holy kisses
and let me die
you can let me die after you’ve covered me with your holy kisses
you can let me die here
with no more wishes
Track Name: from under the waves
diving in, legs glide through the water
clenched hands pull sand to my hips
though i am trying so hard to forget you
still i ache for your kiss
then another breeze on my shoulder
raises the hair on my skin (and my heart breaks)
though i have thrown love to the ocean
still i fear the waves will roll it back in
from under the waves (where my heart breaks)
under the waves where i’m waiting,
as the crest of a wave beats my skin
i’ll keep holding on and i’ll wait to dive in
so here i go again
now seeking refuge, i rush to the shallows
then lay back with my face in my hands
now i’m dreaming of shade in the forest
just a safe place to bury the shame (and my heart breaks)
though i’ve thrown love to the ocean
still i fear those waves gonna roll it back in
oh, from under the waves
where my heart breaks
under the waves where i’ve waited
as the crest of a wave beats my skin
i’ll keep holding on and
i wait to dive in
from under the waves
i’ll wait for you
Track Name: damage
we’d swear we’d always be best friends
we’d keep our faith until the very, very end
and it wouldn’t matter what they’d say
you’d take my hand and we’d just simply walk away
but now my dream’s come undone
crashing around me, here comes another one
and all that remains of a life is the flame
what does it matter who is to blame?
though i saw it all come down
i never knew i’d be the one
now I wear the mark of blame
and i’m just standing here in the sun
its too late for sorry, we’ve turned the damage on
its too late for ‘forgive me,”
its time to get the damage done
and now it does not matter what we do
we can talk, we can talk, but i know my heart is through
it does not matter what they’d say
i know i can’t live like this for one more day
and now i cower alone
i can’t heal your pain, i cannot bear my own
and all that remains of this life is the flame
what does it matter we are to blame?
though i saw it all come down
i never knew i’d be the one
now i wear the mark of blame
and i’m just burning here in the sun
its too late for sorrys, my god what have we done
its too late so forgive me, but time to get this damage done!
i must find a way and a place to hold on to you
i must find a way to save what we had that i know is still true
at the end of the day
you know that i still love you
i still love you
but we’ve got to get the damage done
we got the damage on and on and on
and i watched it all come down
i never knew i’d be the one
that i’d wear the mark of blame
and i/m just burning here in the sun
i must find a way and a place to hold on to you
i must find a way to save what we had that i know is still true
and at the end of the day
please know that i still love you
at the end of this day please know that
i still love you.
Track Name: just before the storm
long time past, the summer sun
leaves so thin and now they’re turning grey
and i think to myself
i feel the clouds growing dark
and i‘ve got something i have to say
wind picks up and it takes my words away
working side by side
in silence now we seal our fate
as we tear the garden down
and my eyes to the sky
and i feel the enormity of this weight
(fear grips me hard in its embrace)
my eyes closed, and i’m right back to that december day
we caught a snowflake swirling
and you gave me your heart and a promise
our hearts could not obey
time is spinning out now
broken pots still need a place to stay
a new panic settles in
i can still see the child
she is buried under this decay
(pain takes me down in its embrace)
my eyes closed and i’m right back to that december day
we caught a snowflake swirling
and you gave me your heart and a promise
our hearts could not obey
we could not obey, not today
take one last look around
Track Name: shadow girl 2
i have fallen so far today, given in and been swept away
do you see me there?
all my progress comes undone with the swing of the pendulum
but my fears remain
these fears remain
and what of my heart?
what of my energy, my time, my possibility
and i know, i must believe!
for though the time has come, i cannot wait to see
nor can i let time dissolve what’s left of me
picked myself up off the floor,
in a cage still i implore
can i try again?
if i can find my way back home, will i find myself alone?
will i have the chance? just half a chance?
and what of my heart?
what of my energy, my time, my possibility
and i know, i must believe!
for though that the time has come, i cannot wait to see.
nor can i let time dissolve what’s left of me
if it takes forever
i will leave me
never.
Track Name: away
where has my heart gone?
it suddenly slipped away
it left this place so hollow
it's hard for me too
it's getting hard for me to stay
and if you would let me
if you would let me love you
if i could feel your breathing
here and now, just like i used to
and if just once more i could be the star that you looked up to
maybe someday, maybe some other day
where has my hope gone?
how could you leave me in this place?
forever sweeping the halls in search of
a fragment of you
or just a fragment of your lovely face
if you would let me
if you would let me love you
if i could feel your breathing
here and now, just like i used to
and if just once more i could be the star that you looked up to
maybe someday, maybe some other day
where, where has my heart gone?
don’t you leave, don’t you leave
don’t you leave me
this way
Track Name: white light
here i come
to lay before your form
and bear my breast, an open door to you
here i come
to lay before your throne
and bear my heart, an open door to you
and you smile, you say ‘stay for a while,’ and so i do
but there’s a problem of which i know
and i don’t know if it shows, if it shows through
you called me your angel
what do you know about angels, and what they do?
do you know, what do you know of angels’ screams?
that things may not be as they seem!
do you know, what do you know of angels’ dreams?
and that i may not be clean!
and if you know, it doesn’t show
oh no? then here i come….
beneath your chin
just to the left, your softest skin
i bite my lips to feel the way you’d taste
take me now
right here upon the floor
where i could properly adore the space we’re in
and you smile, you say ‘stay for a while,’ and so i do
but what if just a sliver can break away
and make me shiver, make me stray away from you
you called me an angel
what do you know about angels, and what they do?
what do you know, what do you know of angels’ dreams
and that i may not be clean
do you know of angels’ screams?
that things may not be as they seem
and if you know, it doesn’t show…..
oh no
then,here i come.
Track Name: my last confession
i lace my boots up, i;m out the door
and walk into a day that’s filled with absurdity
though i’ve scraped myself up off the floor
now there’s no escaping what’s become of me
i never believed it was the end
no, it would just go on and on and on and on this way
now i’ve no need to pretend
this time is running out for me to find another way
i took the sun and moon from the sky
but oh, i want to give them back now!
i’ve drowned all my bridges
drained all the ditches
want healing and i don’t know how!
i’m stripped of my choices,
filled with revulsion
and i’m still trying to make it ok
and it goes on and on and on and on……..this way
deep in my heart
deep in my heart
this truth can’t bring me down ,
cus deep in my heart i have known from the start
that sooner or later it all comes apart
no this truth can’t bring me down
cus deep in my heart i have known from the start
that sooner or later it all comes apart
this truth can’t break me down
cus deep in my heart I have known from the start
sooner or later it all comes apart
this truth can’t break me now
deep in my heart i have known from the start
that sooner or later, this whole world comes apart.
Track Name: a vow worth keeping
when the daylight brings raging fire
and the night, a rushing fall
when the sun and moon have all but vanished
and the stillness comes to call
it will make no difference where you’ve been
nor will it matter where you’ll go
let me cover you now feel my breathing
and in this space
let it go
right here, right now
i’ll stay right here and now
if the shadows can swell in silence
if just a whisper claws a hole
don’t be afraid if you’ve debts to pay
and do not worry whom you owe
i said, i will cover you
you’ll feel my breathing
and in this space
let it fall
right here, right now
and when the ghosts are howling
the forest trees are falling
i’m gonna find a seed and i will keep it near
and you won’t have to call me
just put your arms around me
i’m gonna keep this seedling
cus it’s a vow worth keeping
this is a vow worth keeping
Track Name: chandelier
listen now
like boxes stacked up in the halls
i’ve got to find a place to store you now
before it gets so tight here i cannot pass through at all.
i thought i’d keep my fever out of sight
but all along i know i been swimming in wrong
i tell you, boy,
its going to end right here, this night
this ripple started deep so long ago
miles and miles from any shore
and i did not have the strength to reach for more
until the light poured out of me
and with all the love i had to show
i could not find a way to let you go
no more to stand right here, not in indecision
now i believe our future’s crystal clear
we’ll shine for all the world, a living chandelier
and we won’t break, won’t dissipate
we are here to stay
and we’ve more time, no this time we won’t be blind
of this golden fate
and i want to thank you for believing in what we can be
and i want to thank you for releasing all that’s inside of me
and i want to…
(it’ll play like a special show
just made for us, and us alone)
this ripple started deep so long ago
and now my fear just disappears
we are for all the world a chandelier tonight
and i want to thank you
i really want to thank you now.

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